This is the Stuff

Last night I had a major pity party.

Emotional,

crabby,

whiny

all over the place.

I was just sad and tired of my hubby always leaving. I love that Halliburton puts food on our table and am blessed to have him provide for us but I hate him being gone. Last night I just was done. I have been so strong always keeping my head up and knowing that this would eventually end- but last  night I wanted it to end yesterday.

I don't want to say goodbye every week.

I don't want to sleep in our bed alone (minus pip of course).

I want a kiss goodnight every night.

I want to make dinners and be together.

I was one whiny baby.

Then this morning happened.

My daily bible verse on my phone was...

"Psalms 55:7- Evening and morning and at noon I utter my complaint and moan and he hears my voice."

-He is using this time to grow both of us and more importantly he hears my voice and has a plan.-

Then I get in the car on the way to school and head this amazing new song...

The chorus is perfect:

"This is the stuff
That drives me crazy
This is the stuff
That’s getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I’m blessed
This is the stuff
That get’s under my skin
But I’ve gotta trust
You know exactly what You’re doing
Might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use"

and this part...

"So break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I’ve got a new appreciation
It’s not the end of the world"

 

So I may have been a whiny baby last night but God has given me new eyes and a new perspective. Yeah I still hate him being gone and I am so over it but this is the stuff he uses...